Monday morning and NOT blue

So I've been sick with the flu since Friday. Joy. It's kind of nice really. It meant that i didn't have to go anywhere and do anything. Just stayed at home and got to rest. Well as much as you can with a toddler around.

Our home life is less heavy the last week. Cool hey.

Work wise, SAES is now taking some of my time. I need to put some working hrs in there and thankfully I'll see that rewards.
MFP is also waking up now that the holidays are over. I have 2 bookings and a few ppl have asked for quotes which is a good start.
I've had a meeting with my printer and ordered flyer's and business cards. SO looking forward to that.

We're going to start doing some little things to the house.
Its not going to cost the earth, thankfully, but it will make a difference. And we're going to do it mostly ourselves. So at the end of Feb I'll post some before and after pic's if all goes to plan.

We have a 'party for no reason' coming up at Chantelle's. We have to go as a singer. I'm kind of stuck here. who should i go as??

I just wrote an email to Carol about someone that I no longer have contact with. But what i want to share is something that this person showed me.

Lesson : Learn to make yourself happy. Make your own choices. You don't want to find yourself alone at some stage and have to still find your happiness in life.
This doesn't me that you have to be inconsiderate but it its something to really think about.

I've been thinking about it allot. What do i want out of life??? I haven't figured it out yet.

My shrink says that although planning for the future is vital, i need to bring myself back to the present and live today. So today, I'm going to be happy. I'm going to really live. And when I'm done I'll have no regrets :)

Feelin fat??

So how many of you wake up in the morning and for no real reason cant find clothes to wear.

You feel fat and ugly and you're hair just doesn't work that day. Its a woman thing i know. Some days i forget I'm a woman. i forget that because i have this body I'm subject to its madness...

I'm even breaking out like a teenager!!! what the hell!!!

So there has been lots going on the last week. Leon and i are sorting our relationship out. Started seeing a mediator. You all know I'm a hot head so before i killed him i thought we should give this a try. So watch this space. So far the only benefit that I'm seeing, and i know it doesn't happen over night is that I'm less angry. I guess that's a start.

Gemma is still sleeping badly, so we've ordered her a new bed. So pray that helps!!!!

Otherwise I'm shipping her to her granny ;)

Leon and I went to a downhill mountain bike race in Jonkers hoek last Saturday. We got a mates camera for Leon to use and we took some pic's together. It was fun,. even the flipping hike in my sandals was worth it!

David and Claudia were home for his birthday too. So we went out to my mom on Sunday for David's bday and had lunch together. Kind of sad that Tanya wasn't there. She has her own idea's about right and wrong... But it was nice. David played cricket with his niece's and nephew. Was so cute to see Gemma play with.

Anyway I need to do some work. ja laugh Cindy.... hee hee

Behaving like a good girl

So I'm back to my self respecting self :)

No more messing around on the border's of my worth or my limits.

Its not easy. You get used to feeling a way and having a certain amount of disrespect for yourself.

So you allow things to slide. So what ever your own standards are in life becomes less and you don't even notice it.

I am a controlling person. I know I am. So in a lot of the relationships around me I've tried to stop that. I thought it was time that those that i was bossing around to find their own strength and worth.

Doesn't always work. Some times it gets worse for them. They depend on you to arrange their lives, to fix things, to validate who they are. But who am i to do that?

why worry about what i think?

I don't worry about what YOU think? I'm still me.

This year I'm working on my photography. I'm also going to work on my sign language skills again.

I think i need to practice more :)

Going to get some printing done soon for my photography.

Need flyer's and business cards done. So check your post box for my ad!!

2008??

So i fell asleep just before 12!! and only greeted 2008 around 4am!

last year sucked ass. So glad its gone.
We had some mates over to see the new year in. was nice to just chill. Besides someones drinking problem and my passing out, it was lekker!

Cindy's pregnancy had complications and she's lost the baby.
I don't know how this feels. I can only imagine how... Shame bokkie.

Bonnie and I are working out a plan to put our businesses out there. So watch this space!

Will keep u updated!!!