Counting down

I cant believe a birthday can get to you like this!
What a joke. I'm OK on the surface but having such anxiety that I laugh at myself!
Oh joy!
So in my mental state, I'm having my family, well some of them, over for lunch on Sunday, some of the other family over for tea the afternoon too.
I have no idea why i would put myself through all of this but hey, your only 30 once!

As I said in the entry before this one, i got a few preggy models. Was lots of fun. I even got a third one on Tuesday evening with her little boy. So all 3 were very different.
I have booked my second wedding, which I'm totally over the moon about. So it will be 3 weddings this year that i will be doing, (1 as a gift) and then I'll have a nice portfolio!
Its kind of weird, I didn't think that I would have the balls at 30 to make a move in my life like this, although I'm not stopping my other work, it still is a bit thing.
Thankfully Leon is now understanding that I can do this and I NEED to do this.

This week, oh well, not as fun as most! Just a bit TOO personal on a lot of levels to put on here.
I was lucky enough to be able to book my first wedding! It is on the 24th November! I'm looking forward to that. Convinced 2 girlfriends to pose for me, they are both about 36weeks pregnant. So ja, did the first couple today and the second tomorrow.
Leon and I, I thought were in a good space, it seems that we have been misunderstanding each other. Not fun.
Gemma has been sleeping just a little better thankfully. She was very helpful and was my test model for this afternoon.
Need to start working on a logo for Maine Frame. Going to get some business cards and stuff printed. GOING LARGE! hee hee
Enjoyed a bottle of wine last night, but not enjoying the hangover. When will i learn?
Going to be 30 in a few days. It hasn't started to freak me out YET. BUT watch this space :)
Had my hair done a real bright red. Looks kind of funky.
I woke up yesterday with such a sore shoulder that i couldn't go to work.
I went to physio yesterday, between that and the wine its feeling a hundred times better!!!

Dancing babies!

This past week has been a good one. The reason i say this is if you read my blog a while ago I spoke about boundaries and that I had to set new ones in my life with a few different people.

I'm happy to say that it has been hard work to maintain those boundaries but they have all achieved what I'd hope. Even more than I expected.

I look forward to enjoying these new relations!!

Our daughter is talking allot more lately. She's got quite a few words now but the most impressive came out on Thursday evening while looking around in her room, she pointed to a photo of her and Cara-Claire in the bath and said CC's full name! Then asked me "where Cara-Claire" I almost died! hee hee.

Thankfully she repeated this for her father and Cezanne so they know I'm not crazy!

She hasn't been sleeping as well as we're used to so Leon and i have been a little cranky!

The weekend pulled in and Friday evening we had an unplanned gathering, Cezanne, Vince and CARA-CLAIRE came for supper. I love unplanned. They always are more relaxed! So the mom's finished a bottle of wine while the girls entertained us!

Saturday was heavy for me. Got up and went to have my eyebrows done, rushed home so Leon could shower then off to Cindy for Tatum's first birthday party. I don't know why but Tatum's birthday made me very emotional. I even cried when i called Cindy to wish her!

Well the party was great and very relaxed. I enjoyed taking the photos of all the kids.

I rushed to have some printed after the party for her gran and thankfully i just caught the guy before he left!

We went to a surprise birthday party for Sherene at Octopus in St James. Nice enough venue.

I got trashed again. YIPPEE. I must get it all in before the next baby. ha ha ha

Sunday rolled around and for a changed i didn't feel like going to church. So i let Leon sleep late and entertain the madam.

We just chilled! Kerstin and Ian came round, showed off their new car. Very smart.

I'm now watching Gemma play with keys. I just hope the don't unlock something i might need later! best i get them!

R & R

So we took most of this week off and spent time once again mostly on our own as a family.

I thought I might be bored by the 3rd day and I'm happy to say that i wasn't!

I left my camera mostly in its bag and just chilled!!

Even the dogs behaved!

My cousin Belinda come to visit yesterday with her family.

It was nice just to "be".

She has MS and we don't know how long she'll be able to live a normal functional life so its made all of us realize that not only is her time limited, our is too!

We also celebrated our aunts and uncle's 50th wedding anniversary today.

Most of the family cousins and all, went out for lunch. Kind of weird because half of them I just don't like! But nice enough lunch :)

The next week is going to be a shocker. I have to make up a few hours work and have left things i don't really want to deal with to the last minute and HAVE to sort that out for work too!

Hope those of you that had a holiday enjoyed it.

Beaches and Brandy

Well! Last night was the first time that i got a bit mothered in a LONG time!

Had such a jol! We went to a quiz evening with friends and i think we came in the top half of the table! Not that i was much help! ha ha

I did my first family on the beach. This was a birthday gift for Cezanne and i got some nice ones!

I'm just not putting them out there till she's seen them.

We also had a craft market table at Charmaine's church. Aunty Joan made stuff and some other family members too. We all made a bit of money.

Belinda's birthday today too. So we had supper there. Gemma was on fine form. Dance and laughing with everyone. Little clown.

Leon as a few days off so we're off to my folks till Tuesday. Hope the weathers good.

MIDNITE MASS

Well well.

Our daughter is just such a joy at the moment.

Waking up 3 or 4 times most nights and last night

was awake for more than an hour, from 11 30 till 1!

And don't give me tea mom! YOU're mental!

only juice will do! Flipping hell.

Feel like a train drove over me!

Thankfully the weather is good the last 2 days, can

get my washing dry!

Had to wear VERY old jeans yesterday, I'm just glad they

weren't RED!!!

Facebook is off line since last night. For the first time in a long

time i feel lost. Haven't felt like this since Leon and i stopped chatting

online!

The dogs are playing up more and more. Max weed on my washing that

was on the clothes horse yesterday. I nearly KILLED him!

Now i caught him eating off the kitchen table! little sh!t!!!!

Doing washing again this morning then off to work.