(if your extra touchy and think i write about u don't read this post OK!)
So people are complex creatures. This isn't something new to me. I just thought that I've mastered and balance most of my relationships. Seems for the most part i have but for a few select that can not accept me for who i am.
I'm i good friend 99% of the time. I'm human after all. Or AM I??!!
I've been accused of many things this last few weeks. Bad wife, bad family member bad friend.
So I've spoke about my wrong doings with a close friend or 2 and sorry for u lot but I'm far from that bad person you are trying to blame. I've got a good heart which you all take advantage off. YES you all do. But Friends and family do that to each other. And for love they over look things. Don't we all need our faults to be over looked??
Do u really think your that perfect that you can stand in you're glass house and throw stones?
My love its not stones your throwing. ITS BOULDERS!! If u attack me should i not attack back?
Well guess what? I'm not. I'm not going to sink to that. Not going to fall lower than i am. And I'm pretty low at the moment. I've gone back to a shrink there are lots u guys don't know. She's a nice woman who doesnt always agree with me. Which is great. I need to be guided. How much higher do i need to set my boundaries? Things like that. So I have a few better days lately. I'm grateful for that.
I did my first lesson with a photographer last week, He is a honey i tell u, has so much to offer and not scared to share his knowledge at all. Which is awesome. Don is 70. So u have to understand his been behind a camera for 40plus years!!! Going tomorrow again. Cant wait.
Did my first house photos on Monday. that wasn't easy hey. pretty difficult really. It wasn't finished at all. So had to try with angles and stuff. I can see I'll need to try better ones for them again.
Gemma is now building up to 12pc puzzles. She's so clever. Her speech is coming along nicely too. She's allot more vocal and when she does say a word its perfect not baby type thing. Which is awesome too. Going to have her home for a month. GOING to BE FUN! hee hee. I think I'll be grey by then!!
Leon's booked us in some stunning place on the weekend for a night. Gemma's going to my folks while we try and reconnect.
Looking forward to that.
Carol is down in ct, and we've been lucky to catch up a few times. but this week i haven't been able to see her once!! I hope i get to say good bye!! SHIT chick I'm going to miss u again!
I wish there was a way u could take a pill and wake up in another country!!
Have so much work to do still. Hope that the next few days fly by and i get to relax with my family and friends.
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