Being me...

So I've been thinking again. (doesn't happen often i know)
When you become a wife who are u? When you become a mother who are u?
When you become a friend, who are u?

I feel like all those ppl aren't always me. I don't always want to be mom. I don't always want to be a wife or an understanding friend. When do i just get to be me?
Do things only for me?
Not work or going out but what make me happy with no one else to answer too.
Why does things have to change when you have a ring on your figure or a child?

I don't mean that i don't want those relationships. I just want to figure out where i am. When do my own dreams get put aside??
I know i have to consider the ppl in my life. I love them. BUT WHERE AM I!!!!!


if u see me tell me :)

Well what's new? Mmmm its chantelle's 29th bday!
Happy bday to her.
I wonder why i have such a young friend, then i remember, she's just as tarty as i am!

My mom, sister, nice and nephew have gone to England for amonth. I'll miss my mom. as i talk to her daily.

Bridgette is safely in her villa. BITCH. in Ibiza. I miss her madly. Thankfully she has a cell number now so its easier to chat.

Bon and i had a fun time Saturday. we had an open day and a table at a play school to sell our products. Not really a me thing. I don't like selling myself. But we did well and the 2 of us are equally tarty so was fun.

What else.... Oh Chantelle's party is Saturday night. going to Jol after I think,
Sounds like a good idea. and since its not a ladies night, Leon is hopefully going to dance with me!!!

Gemma is saying her name nicely now. she's really cute.

Have my first white studio shoot on Saturday. Lank keen on that hey. I hope i get the results i want.
I took pics of Michelle on her horse. Was kind of fun. I learnt what I need to do for next time :)

To those of u that are far away. Big smooch from me. I miss you all. YIP that includes u ;)

landing with a boom

Since my last entry life has just flown by once again.
I've had another pic posted on the my news 24 section. I know its not such a big deal as any tart with a cam can send it a pic and it might be used. But I still feel special.

My photography is taking on a life of its own. I'm learning more things about my art everyday and I'm still enjoying it. To the surprise of my husband!

Home life has been busy. Lots of things happening. I've taken on a bit more book work and my mom is going to England soon for a holiday so I've been trying to learn her system in the office. Not sure if its a system that I'll ever understand. Maybe Noah's wife can help!

I've started a weight loss challenge with 2 friends. Whose names I'll leave out for now. Its only been 5 days but yesterday was HARD. I just wanted sweets!!!!
I'm determined this time to stick with it. I can let those girls beat me! ha ha ha

We hosting a few friends tomorrow night for Leon's bday. I'm going to be cooking today till tomorrow by the look of it. But next to my photography, its my next best art! :) Will be fun to have mate around again.

Gemma is now a talker. She repeats most words and is making sentences. She is now company, and i enjoy that allot. We can talk and pray and its special. I know that in a few years mommy will be uncool but I'm thankful its going to be years!!!

Carol is coming home in a few weeks (8 i think) I'm missing her calmest, and to top it my other calming person, Bridgette is leaving in 2wks for 3 months. The life of a rockstars wife i tell u!

All in one day Bonnie, Bridgette and I won our own lotto. Bridgette's pregnancy was confirmed as a boy the morning (YIPPY) I found out that another pic was used on line and Bonnie won some bucks on the lotto! It was a funny feeling.

Here's to a great JUNE, i can feel it in my bones :)