Breathing

Tell me, why do we as woman feel like we can never really stop and breath?
Once that wedding ring is on and the kids are around, being sick and tired isn't something we're allowed to feel? Our mothers did set an example, but what we don't know and didn't see are the hours that they cried themselves to sleep or the tired feet in the bath or the crap relationship they had with their husbands

I'm starting a new bread of woman, we want to be equal to men, not subservient and superhuman all at once??
Equal means equal. We all work. We both are tired. Then why is it that its more expected of me to wash the kitchen down, or clean the house?
STUFF THAT!!

SO taking time out is something we have to start doing more of and stuff the reaction of others.

Ok enough with the rantings.
I've taken some time to start sorting my head out, stop with the negative comments and I've started to feel better about myself.
Its amazing what a few words each day to yourself can do.
But my art suffered, because of the negative head space i found that my usual free style of photography was put out and although there was nothing wrong with any of it, it just wasn't me (hey Cindy :) )

But I'm feeling much more confidant again and back to my usual hot self with the camera :) ha ha ha

So Carol's visit is over, and sadly i didn't get to see her much, but family comments and work didn't play well with either of us, but I'm still thankful for the time i had with her. (going to miss u chick!)

Bridgette comes home in just over a week, looking forward to that! Its going to be a LONG first coffee! hee hee

Bonnie, my wingwoman, just dropped a great big boom on me! She found out on Friday that she is pregnant! While I'm just a little sad that i wont have my eviltwin on girls nights, I'm SO happy for her that she's going to be a mommy again! Not sure what her PH levels were though! ha ha ha

Gemma is well and showing Leon and I how just to chill.

What else... mmmm not much hey, just dont expect me to be around much in the next few months, I have 4 weddings,2 golf days, stacks of birthdays an end of year function, matric dance before party and I'm sure lots that I've forgotten! AND NO amount of negative head space is go int to stuff with my art again!

Hope you all have a easy week, i know i wont! but the challenge is going to be fun!

One down 3468461469 to go!

So Friday nights party was mental and there are about 600photos to prove it!
It was Cezannes 30th dress up party at a club in kenilworth, TO much wine and other stuff and SO MUCH dancing and WAY to much kissing went on!
My Feet are still sore in places from the crazy read shoes

Saturday saw my first matric dance. It was a small school and venue, i had help with 2 other photographers and we had fun. Being our first real night job it wasn't easy but we still got a few good ones for the kids.

Well it seems that my self confidence should be higher than it is.
I doubt myself alot and even when i know that its OK not to be perfect it still hurts when I'm not able to be.
So I've got self improvement homework. Which isn't easy if you look in the mirror and only see, failure.
Lucky for me i have good understanding friends and a few that are going through the same type of thing.
And a very understanding husband. Thanks for that.
Pleasing everyone is also impossible, that i need to get used too!

So the madness carries on and there are lots of events still this ,month.
And a few extra things that I'm holding close. You'll just have to watch this space!

I'm still in my pjs! I need to move!
Mail me soon
Big loves to you that are far away.

Oh and Carol is HOME for a few days. Looking forward to spending more time with her!

August the Killer month!

OMF- this month is going to be crazy, besides the work deadlines i have, there are so many other functions this month, starting with Friday! 080808, well that is the date, so there are a few million things happening on that day, Cezanne is 30, so we're celebrating it with a dress up party, watch this space for photos, at a venue that I'm not sharing, just in case u gate crash! ha ha
Then there are a few sites that I've joined that you need to submit a photo taken on that day, so that leave me with crazy ppl dress up or table mountain, guess what I'll take????

Carol is home for a few days from Wednesday! It seems like its going to be too short!

The weekend sees a first for me, I'm taking the photos at a matric dance, its not a big do at all, but its still something and I've asked 2 other photographers to come along, Belinda (my cousin) and Ian. They are building their porti's up so I'll help were i can.

So i said this month is crazy, so forgive me if i don't update for a while. I just wont have the time.

Cindy and Bonnie's bday's are up soon, and as their bday gifts i took them to watch the FULL MONTY, it was brilliant! i think that if your able to go, do it. The show is so well put together! We laughed allot at this!

Talk about laughing! Thanks Chantelle and Bonnie for the other night! damn, i think Clicks in Canal walks staff had a giggle at me crying with laughter on the floor!!!!


I've lost pluck again with the weight loss story, i really want to, but I'm just so flat at the moment i just cant be asked to do much! i don't want to be 60kgs again, that was the YOUNG and stupid me! I'm feeling more at home in this 30something body but just hate this tummy of mine. I guess we all not happy with some part of our body. I just need to stop bitching and start doing something, ITS JUST WORK!!!! KAK!

What else, did i tell u Leon's gone back to Tech? He hasn't studied since school, so his taking it easy, his doing 2 sub's at a time, i'm proud of him to go back and do something new. I know its not easy, so i'm a single parent twice a week!

I'm updating my clothes, it seems that the takkies and tees are just not doing me any justice so I'm buy more 'girlie' clothes and funking it up a bit. I have so many shoes now! I didn't think i had it in me!!!

OH damn, i need to dash! Enjoy the last few weeks of winter! if you can call it that!