The End of another year!

New years... Its always a anti climax in my books. Its not like the earth spins extra fast or the moon turns pink. Its just another year, month, day, min...
The only difference is that we've moved forward. Thankfully so.
This last year has been allot of work. For me as a person, my relationship/s with my husband, friends and myself, has changed. And I'm grateful it has. I feel I'm becoming a woman I want to know. Someone I could love and enjoy.

I know I still have allot of work to do. My work life is going to change and I fear its going to be harder at fist to deal with.
Gemma goes to a new environment. A new daycare. She is such a loving child and even when she acts like her father (lol) it doesn't last very long.

Me, I feel I'm stronger. I'm more at home with my life, choices and body.
I feel least responsible for others and this is a big thing for me. I always try and fix things. Mother my family and friends. But I've realised they don't always do it for me. And the understanding of what I might need from a relationship isn't always clear to them. So I'm pretty please that in most cases I've been able to tell them...

The results of my blood tests will come out next week. I go on Monday for my test. So that will be great to know that its over. I know it will be.

Thanks to all of you that have been supportive. And if you haven't, then you have next year to try! hahahaha

Cheers to a new bright year!

100th posting :)

SO this is my 100th posting since starting this blog. Cool hey :)

Anyway. Up date on the needle thing.
We'll I've now been on the ARV's for 3 weeks. They are not a fun thing to take.
The nausea continued for a while and some days it visits for a few mins still.
I don't sleep well. Partly from the drugs and partly from stress.
It doesn't matter that I'm such a low risk case that i shouldn't worry. I do.
And the worse part i cant drink my worries away :)
I take my last drugs on the 21st and will have to go in the new year for my testing.
Which is a long wait.

Taking the drugs is the easy part. No one tells you how hard your partner or child will take this. Its not easy for them. Gemma might be too small to understand whats going on,but she still is acting out. Poor child.
Leon, well he didn't protect me. That's a man thing. Its hard for him to think he might lose me. So this whole thing didn't just happen to me. It happened to my family too.

LETS not talk about my weight!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARG!!!!!!!
Besides being a stress eater, the med's don't help!!!!! The first 2 weeks when i wasn't fighting the nausea i was eating! and EATING AND EATING. thankfully that's kind of stopped now. 2.5kgs later! So will have to watch what i do over the festive season.

My photography has blow me away! I'm busy now and really making some money.
I've bought myself a second camera and a nice new lens. ABSA owns my arse now! lol
But I'll pay it back quickly the way things are going! Which is great.

I'm not sure if I'll have time to update during the festive season.
SO I'm going to wish you all a great and safe one

Thanks too all for the support over the last year!
Lots of love and wishes

Delmaine